Wednesday, October 18, 2006

So, I am in a good mood this morning....

But, I think it is just more like avoidance or denial. This evening at 6:30 I have an appt with the vet for my darling Willie (aka Weezer aka the first child). If you have been coming around here for any length of time you know that Weezer is getting pretty old - 15 human years to be exact. He was my first child and got me through some pretty rough times. Just before we moved to MN, we had taken him to the vet and discovered his spine is pretty much solid from arthritis and it prevents him from standing straight. He has other ailments too but he has a strong heart and was doing OK and still had 5 out of 7 good days a week. After we moved, we could tell the cold weather was really getting to him but he still managed to have a few good days and was still playful. We had him on pain meds for most of the winter. Then in early spring, he started having kidney problems and became incontinent. Luckily, that cleared up but we have noticed more and more that all he does is sleep. Literally. He gets up when the man child gets ready for school. I take him out and then he comes back in and sleeps until, well until we wake him up again to take him out which is usually around 3-4 in the afternoon. He will try to stay awake and try to walk (mostly shaky) for a few hours in the evening and then he sleeps the rest of the night. His appetite has decreased over the last several months. We know that we are coming to the end of our time with Willie.

We are going to take him to the vet this evening for an consultation/evaluation for having him put to sleep (and counseling for us). I can't stand to even think about this but I don't want my precious puppy to live in constant pain. I haven't really told the kids outright yet although I do drop little comments here and there to get their reactions. If the vet truly thinks there is something we can do to help him, then by all means we will do it but we have come to the realization that there may not be much we can do to help. So, with this visit I am going in expecting the worst but hoping for the best.

Cheeky....Who is singing a little Elton John.....Guess there are times when we all need to share a little pain. And ironing out the rough spots, Is the hardest part when memories remain. And it's times like these when we all need to hear the radio, `Cause from the lips of some old singer, We can share the troubles we already know...

Turn them on, turn them on, Turn on those sad songs, When all hope is gone, Why don't you tune in and turn them on....

They reach into your room. Just feel their gentle touch. When all hope is gone, Sad songs say so much...

If someone else is suffering enough to write it down, When every single word makes sense, Then it's easier to have those songs around. The kick inside is in the line that finally gets to you, and it feels so good to hurt so bad, And suffer just enough to sing the blues.

Sad songs, they say....Sad songs, they say....Sad songs, they say....Sad songs, they say so much...so Turn them on, turn them on, Turn on those sad songs, When all hope is gone, Why don't you tune in and turn them on....
Posted byWendy aka Cheeky :: 8:26 AM :: 11 Singing with Cheeky

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